Tomorrow, Tomorrow

We were supposed to find out the results of the head ultrasounds today, but when we found out the doctor on call is the same doctor that scared us to death with the original ultrasound results, we opted to wait until tomorrow when we can get them from Dr. K. The girls looked good today, although they had to put Madeline back on the ventilator. She was just too tired and had been working so hard. We've resolved not to get discouraged. They warned us this could, and probably would, happen. It doesn't necessarily mean she has taken a step back; she just needed a break. One of the nurses put everything into perspective. They aren't even supposed to be here yet and we are demanding that they breathe, eat, digest milk, have bowel movements, and regulate their body temperatures. We are insisting they do a lot of things that their little bodies are yet meant to do. Even though she is back on the ventilator, Madeline will continue to receive breast milk, so hopefully she will continue to grow. One positive thing about her being back on the ventilator is that it should help her to gain weight since she won't be expending calories with the effort it takes her to breathe on her own. We don't know how long she will have to be on the ventilator this time, but I'm not worried as long as she can continue to eat.