Good News

We found out the results of the latest head ultrasounds today. It was good news, not fantastic news, but good news. The scans revealed that there hasn't been any significant change in either of their bleeds. Translation: it hasn't gotten worse. Dr. K was pleased with the results and has scheduled another head ultrasound for next Tuesday and every Tuesday following that until the results show improvement. At our first meeting, when we discussed all of the girls' problems, Dr. K mentioned that if things were going to get worse, it would happen in the week or two following their birth. So, the hopeful mommy in me is holding on to the thought that if it hasn't gotten worse by now, it won't. I hope I am right.

Madeline is doing well on the ventilator. Cadence has followed and is also back on the ventilator. They both just wore out. They will try switching them to the CPAP again in the next week or so. As I've said before, we are not concerned as long as they both continue to eat. With her switch back to the ventilator, they had to temporarily stop Cadie's feedings, but will resume them soon. The hardest part of going backwards is seeing them out of their isolettes and back in the radiant warmers. It was really difficult not to feel as though they had taken a huge step back. I have been warned over and over again that life in the NICU is a roller coaster, but I’m not sure any amount of warnings can help you fully comprehend how hard it is unless you find yourself in the middle of it. I am trying to be as positive as I can, especially for Cadence and Madeline, but some days it feels impossible.